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WITHOUT YOU
there you go - once again.
i can't keep you - once again….
i'm SO tired of watching you walk away from me….
it's been 3 days - once again.
it's been 3 weeks - once again….
i'm SO tired of having to "make the best of it"…
this isn't what i signed up for.
i signed up to BE with you...
this isn't what i had hoped for.
i'd hoped for TIME with you....
when you said "goodbye" last night-
something didn't feel right…
if you never come back- how will i live without you?
2 months in - and we're over.
i'm still fighting… i'm still hopeful…
i go crazy feeling you pull away from me…
8 months in- we're not speaking.
i have mourned…. i'm still grieving…
i go crazy screaming at you inside my head.
this isn't what i signed up for.
i signed up to BE with you…
this isn't what i had planned on...
i'd planned on LOVING you…
now i sleep alone at night.
now my future's not as bright.
now you've been gone 2 years and
i still can't live without you...
please tell me - how do you move on from "it's you- i've always known…" ?
please tell me - how do you let go of "i'll NEVER let you go"… ?
something isn't right... why'd you stop the fight?!
there you go - once again.
i can't keep you - once again.
i can't escape... this crushing weight bears down on my chest....
3 years gone that i can't defend.
3 years lost without my best friend.
3 years WASTED, cause waiting for you is all i do.
this isn't what i signed up for.
i signed up to BE with you…
this isn't what i had planned on.
i'd planned to start anew...
instead -i have broken dreams.
instead - i ripped at the seams....
now you've been gone 3 years ...
how do i breathe without you?
there you go - once again.
i can't keep you - once again….
i'm SO tired of watching you walk away from me….
it's been 3 days - once again.
it's been 3 weeks - once again….
i'm SO tired of having to "make the best of it"…
this isn't what i signed up for.
i signed up to BE with you...
this isn't what i had hoped for.
i'd hoped for TIME with you....
when you said "goodbye" last night-
something didn't feel right…
if you never come back- how will i live without you?
2 months in - and we're over.
i'm still fighting… i'm still hopeful…
i go crazy feeling you pull away from me…
8 months in- we're not speaking.
i have mourned…. i'm still grieving…
i go crazy screaming at you inside my head.
this isn't what i signed up for.
i signed up to BE with you…
this isn't what i had planned on...
i'd planned on LOVING you…
now i sleep alone at night.
now my future's not as bright.
now you've been gone 2 years and
i still can't live without you...
please tell me - how do you move on from "it's you- i've always known…" ?
please tell me - how do you let go of "i'll NEVER let you go"… ?
something isn't right... why'd you stop the fight?!
there you go - once again.
i can't keep you - once again.
i can't escape... this crushing weight bears down on my chest....
3 years gone that i can't defend.
3 years lost without my best friend.
3 years WASTED, cause waiting for you is all i do.
this isn't what i signed up for.
i signed up to BE with you…
this isn't what i had planned on.
i'd planned to start anew...
instead -i have broken dreams.
instead - i ripped at the seams....
now you've been gone 3 years ...
how do i breathe without you?
MAKES SENSE
i had a dream, and when i woke i couldn't help but notice -
you're still not here.
so i had no choice but to sit down and write to you...
write this stupid song, with the same 3 notes that everyone always uses…
i am SO sick of these same 3 chords, and still- they're the only ones that fit…
why doesn't anything make sense when you're not here?
i wonder why i feel so drained- and its just because i'm missing you..
why doesn't anything make sense when you're not here?
can't you come home? baby, just come home….
come home….
i made a list of everything that we have to do in the next few months
1. find a good place to live
2. find a couple of jobs and magically -
3. somehow strike it rich.
i never dreamed this would be my life, and yet- here it is -
and i'll tell you something...
i wouldn't change a single thing
cause at the end of the day i still get you…
people may judge us, and they might not understand.
but i'll never give up just because this hard....
cause absolutely NOTHING makes sense when you're not here!
what else can i say to let you know- i'm not going anywhere!
nothing makes sense when you're not here- because we're in Love...
baby, i Love you….
please...
come home....
i had a dream and when i woke i couldn't help but notice -
you're still not here.
so i had no choice but to sit down and write for you...
i had a dream, and when i woke i couldn't help but notice -
you're still not here.
so i had no choice but to sit down and write to you...
write this stupid song, with the same 3 notes that everyone always uses…
i am SO sick of these same 3 chords, and still- they're the only ones that fit…
why doesn't anything make sense when you're not here?
i wonder why i feel so drained- and its just because i'm missing you..
why doesn't anything make sense when you're not here?
can't you come home? baby, just come home….
come home….
i made a list of everything that we have to do in the next few months
1. find a good place to live
2. find a couple of jobs and magically -
3. somehow strike it rich.
i never dreamed this would be my life, and yet- here it is -
and i'll tell you something...
i wouldn't change a single thing
cause at the end of the day i still get you…
people may judge us, and they might not understand.
but i'll never give up just because this hard....
cause absolutely NOTHING makes sense when you're not here!
what else can i say to let you know- i'm not going anywhere!
nothing makes sense when you're not here- because we're in Love...
baby, i Love you….
please...
come home....
i had a dream and when i woke i couldn't help but notice -
you're still not here.
so i had no choice but to sit down and write for you...
SAME OLD SAME
you pretend for so long it starts to feel real.
you can trick yourself into believing you're okay.
you pretend for so long it starts to sink in -
you're only acting and everything still feels wrong...
you pretend for so long you start to fool your friends.
you even talk your family into leaving you alone.
you pretend for so long you start to fool yourself.
your eyes can open, smiles return, and hugs don't burn...
but you always know - it's all for show.
it's not okay.... it may be another day-
but its the same old- same old, same.
you pretend for so long it starts to feel good.
the numbness creeps in late at night and dulls the sword.
you pretend for so long it starts to feel right.
the emptiness your muscles hold churns and bites...
you pretend for so long you start to fool the world.
when people ask "are you alright?" it feels absurd....
you pretend for so long you start to fool yourself.
you even talk your memories into leaving you alone....
but you always know - it's just a show.
it's not okay. it may be another day-
but its the same old- same old, same.
it never changes, no- it NEVER ends.
i wake thinking it's better - but it's worse today...
"time heals all wounds" is a myth
it makes them deeper...
love is blind but loss is clear -
i finally see her…
you pretend for so long it starts to feel real.
you can trick yourself into believing you're okay.
you pretend for so long it starts to sink in -
you're only acting and everything still feels wrong...
you pretend for so long you start to fool your friends.
you even talk your family into leaving you alone.
you pretend for so long you start to fool yourself.
your eyes can open, smiles return, and hugs don't burn...
but you always know - it's all for show.
it's not okay.... it may be another day-
but its the same old- same old, same.
you pretend for so long it starts to feel good.
the numbness creeps in late at night and dulls the sword.
you pretend for so long it starts to feel right.
the emptiness your muscles hold churns and bites...
you pretend for so long you start to fool the world.
when people ask "are you alright?" it feels absurd....
you pretend for so long you start to fool yourself.
you even talk your memories into leaving you alone....
but you always know - it's just a show.
it's not okay. it may be another day-
but its the same old- same old, same.
it never changes, no- it NEVER ends.
i wake thinking it's better - but it's worse today...
"time heals all wounds" is a myth
it makes them deeper...
love is blind but loss is clear -
i finally see her…
10 BOYFRIENDS
wanting.... endlessly wanting....
waiting in the same exact place you left me-
you left me wanting.
craving.... endlessly craving…..
craving the goodbye we never had
you've left me- you've left me craving.
i don't know how i ever thought i was in love before this.
i don't know how i thought there was magic in anyone else's kiss…
my last 10 boyfriends are nothing compared to you.
no one has EVER loved me the way that YOU do...
but i will surely get over not being yours forever…
forever.
reeling... my body's still reeling.....
from the very first touch to our last embrace -
i am still reeling.
healing.... i'm finally healing....
like a broken bone i had to be reset to regain feeling.
i don't know how i ever thought i was happy before this.
i don't know how i thought i felt magic in anyone else's kiss...
my last 10 boyfriends are NOTHING compared to you.
no one has ever loved me the way that you do.
but i will surely get over not being yours forever-
forever…
it wouldn't matter if you stayed away forever -
i know someday we'll find each other out there!
and next time we'll have so much more than we started with before…
i will never get over not being yours forever...
wanting.... endlessly wanting....
waiting in the same exact place you left me-
you left me wanting.
craving.... endlessly craving…..
craving the goodbye we never had
you've left me- you've left me craving.
i don't know how i ever thought i was in love before this.
i don't know how i thought there was magic in anyone else's kiss…
my last 10 boyfriends are nothing compared to you.
no one has EVER loved me the way that YOU do...
but i will surely get over not being yours forever…
forever.
reeling... my body's still reeling.....
from the very first touch to our last embrace -
i am still reeling.
healing.... i'm finally healing....
like a broken bone i had to be reset to regain feeling.
i don't know how i ever thought i was happy before this.
i don't know how i thought i felt magic in anyone else's kiss...
my last 10 boyfriends are NOTHING compared to you.
no one has ever loved me the way that you do.
but i will surely get over not being yours forever-
forever…
it wouldn't matter if you stayed away forever -
i know someday we'll find each other out there!
and next time we'll have so much more than we started with before…
i will never get over not being yours forever...
ERASE IT ALL
it doesn't matter how happy the fall
now that it's over, i wish that i could just erase it all...
if i had my way - i'd have never met you.
if i could choose - i'd choose to forget you.
you have done nothing but break my heart
and make me regret the day i learned your name.
if i'd known it would end like this-
i'd have stopped our 1st kiss and erased the bliss
we felt that whole year when the world ceased to exist in your arms.
i'd erase it all...
if i had my way - i'd have never met you.
if i could choose - i'd choose to forget you.
you are the worst thing that's ever been inflicted on my heart.
you're like a disease...
if i'd known it would end like this -
i'd have stopped your dumb game that led to the first of
10 million kisses that ripped my life apart
how i wish i could just erase it all....
cause only in looking back - can i see how the signs were laid out for me.
and only in looking back - can i see how you NEVER loved me for me.
and only in looking back - can i see the deceit flowing in your tears.
and only in looking - back does it all become so clear...
if i had my way - i'd have never met you.
if i could choose - i'd choose to forget you.
i would forget every second of the life that we shared
that you chose to betray.
if i'd known it would end like this -
i'd have NEVER accepted the birthday gift
that led to me planning my whole entire life around your lies.
i'd erase it all.
it doesn't matter how happy the fall
now that it's over, i wish that i could just erase it all...
if i had my way - i'd have never met you.
if i could choose - i'd choose to forget you.
you have done nothing but break my heart
and make me regret the day i learned your name.
if i'd known it would end like this-
i'd have stopped our 1st kiss and erased the bliss
we felt that whole year when the world ceased to exist in your arms.
i'd erase it all...
if i had my way - i'd have never met you.
if i could choose - i'd choose to forget you.
you are the worst thing that's ever been inflicted on my heart.
you're like a disease...
if i'd known it would end like this -
i'd have stopped your dumb game that led to the first of
10 million kisses that ripped my life apart
how i wish i could just erase it all....
cause only in looking back - can i see how the signs were laid out for me.
and only in looking back - can i see how you NEVER loved me for me.
and only in looking back - can i see the deceit flowing in your tears.
and only in looking - back does it all become so clear...
if i had my way - i'd have never met you.
if i could choose - i'd choose to forget you.
i would forget every second of the life that we shared
that you chose to betray.
if i'd known it would end like this -
i'd have NEVER accepted the birthday gift
that led to me planning my whole entire life around your lies.
i'd erase it all.
TO LOVE YOU
i was once a shallow girl.
not quite happy but at peace with the world...
everything was in its place.
never argued, kept a smile on my face.
but i used it up, timidity ran out.
strength rose up in me, grew and then spilled out.
i know... i always knew….
its you... my strength came from you.
you helped me through.
somehow you knew the me that was hiding
that so few had seen.
so few were invited because so few had believed.
you made me need you. you gave me hope.
you gave me weakness. you gave me-
everything i'd been missing…
i try so hard. but i can never stay away.
i try so hard not to love you…
i was once a selfish fool -
not quite unkind, but at odds with the world.
everything was out of place -
always hurting with a smile on my face.
but i used it up.
hypocrisy ran out.
strength welled up in me -
sang, and then screamed out:
"i know! i ALWAYS knew.
it's YOU. my strength comes from you.
you helped me through."
somehow you knew the me that was fading...
the me that had gone.
and you helped me see it's okay to be wrong.
you gave me guidance. you gave me hope...
you gave me solace. you gave me- everything i'd been missing…
i try so hard - but i can never stay away
i try so hard not to love you...
i was once a shallow girl.
not quite happy but at peace with the world...
everything was in its place.
never argued, kept a smile on my face.
but i used it up, timidity ran out.
strength rose up in me, grew and then spilled out.
i know... i always knew….
its you... my strength came from you.
you helped me through.
somehow you knew the me that was hiding
that so few had seen.
so few were invited because so few had believed.
you made me need you. you gave me hope.
you gave me weakness. you gave me-
everything i'd been missing…
i try so hard. but i can never stay away.
i try so hard not to love you…
i was once a selfish fool -
not quite unkind, but at odds with the world.
everything was out of place -
always hurting with a smile on my face.
but i used it up.
hypocrisy ran out.
strength welled up in me -
sang, and then screamed out:
"i know! i ALWAYS knew.
it's YOU. my strength comes from you.
you helped me through."
somehow you knew the me that was fading...
the me that had gone.
and you helped me see it's okay to be wrong.
you gave me guidance. you gave me hope...
you gave me solace. you gave me- everything i'd been missing…
i try so hard - but i can never stay away
i try so hard not to love you...
STILL // LET GO
see me... you see me... do you see me still?
want me... you want me. DO you want me, still?
Lovers born from strangers feel like strangers, still...
but Lovers born from best friends - feel like Lovers... still...
was this fated to end?
or did we break because i couldn't bend?
i'm left climbing up hill.
i am left pretending you're here...
still...
i sit. i wait. i contemplate the meaning of mistakes.
i try to let it go.
i breathe. i fake. i contemplate the root of all this hate.
and try to let it go.
i learn. i wake. i contemplate a cold and swift escape.
i try to let it go.
i weep. i ache. i contemplate how much more i can take.
i'm trying to let it go.
let it go.... let it go...
i ran. i moved. i read the books, i followed all the rules.
i work to let it go.
new friends. new mood. i changed my hair, i even changed my food.
it helps me let it go.
i wrote. i prayed. i cried all night and slept the months away.
still trying to let it go.
i fought. i paid. i had to leave the home that we had made.
i had to let it go.
let it go.... let it go.
i'm left. i wait - trapped in the gravity of my mistakes....
because i let you go.
i yearn. i break. still pretending i'm okay for your sake.
because you let me go....
you let me go.
let it go.
just let go...
see me... you see me... do you see me still?
want me... you want me. DO you want me, still?
Lovers born from strangers feel like strangers, still...
but Lovers born from best friends - feel like Lovers... still...
was this fated to end?
or did we break because i couldn't bend?
i'm left climbing up hill.
i am left pretending you're here...
still...
i sit. i wait. i contemplate the meaning of mistakes.
i try to let it go.
i breathe. i fake. i contemplate the root of all this hate.
and try to let it go.
i learn. i wake. i contemplate a cold and swift escape.
i try to let it go.
i weep. i ache. i contemplate how much more i can take.
i'm trying to let it go.
let it go.... let it go...
i ran. i moved. i read the books, i followed all the rules.
i work to let it go.
new friends. new mood. i changed my hair, i even changed my food.
it helps me let it go.
i wrote. i prayed. i cried all night and slept the months away.
still trying to let it go.
i fought. i paid. i had to leave the home that we had made.
i had to let it go.
let it go.... let it go.
i'm left. i wait - trapped in the gravity of my mistakes....
because i let you go.
i yearn. i break. still pretending i'm okay for your sake.
because you let me go....
you let me go.
let it go.
just let go...
TRY
stretching for the climb.
ready? i feel fine.
ready on my own time- i try, i try, i try.
hiking up the hill, ready for the kill.
ready still? ready...
until i try… i try… i try…
then i fall down.
i fall crashing to the ground.
but i won't cry.
i'll just get up again-
and try.
i can't make this right.
i can't make you fight...
i can't make you ANYTHING-
i've tried, i've tried,
i tried...
so i fight on alone.
i fight out on my own.
i will fight my way through stone.
i'll fight down to my bones.
and i'll fall down -
i'll fall crashing to the ground.
until i die- i'll just get up again -
and try...
i am dangerous because of all that i've been through.
there is NOTHING that i fear: not pain, not grief,
not you.
but you are dangerous because you've been through nothing
so fear is ALL you know…
i will stand up tall after my biggest fall.
grateful i can stand at all- with joy i'll fall, i'll fall…
and i'll fight on alone.
i'll fight all on my own....
i will fight my way through stone -
i'll fight down to my bones.
and i will fail.
but i will still pull down this veil.
and if i cry-
it's just a sign i'm still
alive.
stretching for the climb.
ready? i feel fine.
ready on my own time- i try, i try, i try.
hiking up the hill, ready for the kill.
ready still? ready...
until i try… i try… i try…
then i fall down.
i fall crashing to the ground.
but i won't cry.
i'll just get up again-
and try.
i can't make this right.
i can't make you fight...
i can't make you ANYTHING-
i've tried, i've tried,
i tried...
so i fight on alone.
i fight out on my own.
i will fight my way through stone.
i'll fight down to my bones.
and i'll fall down -
i'll fall crashing to the ground.
until i die- i'll just get up again -
and try...
i am dangerous because of all that i've been through.
there is NOTHING that i fear: not pain, not grief,
not you.
but you are dangerous because you've been through nothing
so fear is ALL you know…
i will stand up tall after my biggest fall.
grateful i can stand at all- with joy i'll fall, i'll fall…
and i'll fight on alone.
i'll fight all on my own....
i will fight my way through stone -
i'll fight down to my bones.
and i will fail.
but i will still pull down this veil.
and if i cry-
it's just a sign i'm still
alive.
THE PROBLEM
you take my words and twist them like weeds.
you leave no room to hear what they really mean.
you take my gestures and make them obscene.
a good intention- turns into a verbal beating.
so how do i still make time?
and how do i still not cry?
and how do you STILL not see who i am?
and why do i care so much
that you crave another's touch?
how have i still not let us go?
if i multiplied my fingers
there's no end to what they could do.
they could divide my feelings....
i'd take my heart, stomach the pain -
and subtract you.
you take my tears and treat them like thieves.
so busy accusing - you don't see what they really mean.
and you take my letters as flags of defeat
so busy dissecting - looking for signs of deceit.
so why do i still make time
when i still break down and cry?
why can't you just let me back in?
and why do i wish on our stars
as you sleep in another's arms... ?
why can't i just accept you're gone?
me alone equals disaster.
but me plus you - burns SO much faster...
how can we stay apart one day longer -
when i want you
like you miss me?
but i can't divide my feelings.
if i could - you know i would start.
i would separate my body.
i'd burn the core, donate my hands-
and give you my heart.
you take my words and twist them like weeds.
you leave no room to hear what they really mean.
you take my gestures and make them obscene.
a good intention- turns into a verbal beating.
so how do i still make time?
and how do i still not cry?
and how do you STILL not see who i am?
and why do i care so much
that you crave another's touch?
how have i still not let us go?
if i multiplied my fingers
there's no end to what they could do.
they could divide my feelings....
i'd take my heart, stomach the pain -
and subtract you.
you take my tears and treat them like thieves.
so busy accusing - you don't see what they really mean.
and you take my letters as flags of defeat
so busy dissecting - looking for signs of deceit.
so why do i still make time
when i still break down and cry?
why can't you just let me back in?
and why do i wish on our stars
as you sleep in another's arms... ?
why can't i just accept you're gone?
me alone equals disaster.
but me plus you - burns SO much faster...
how can we stay apart one day longer -
when i want you
like you miss me?
but i can't divide my feelings.
if i could - you know i would start.
i would separate my body.
i'd burn the core, donate my hands-
and give you my heart.
THE TRUTH ABOUT LOVE
we've said goodbye a thousand times
still there's so much more i wish i could say to you right now.
like - "i always knew that this would end."
but lying in your arms felt so right- i let us pretend.
i could never love you like you wanted,
but i could never love anyone more.
when you thought i was full of lies and malice
i was just trying to protect us both from this.
this is the truth about love.
this is the part so few dare to discover.
the truth about love -
is that the best ones don't always last forever.
now you're a million miles away
waking up in someone else's arms every day.
for the first 2 years i couldn't move...
now there are days when i forget to remember you.
cause i could never love you like you wanted,
and i think that broke me much more than it hurt you.
cause you thought i was full of lies and stories,
when all that i had done was lost my mind over you.
this is the truth about love.
this is the part so few dare to discover.
the truth about love -
is that the best ones dont always last
and when they don't last - then we're just left to make it on our own.
... and i was never good at being alone ...
this is the truth about love...
the part that i wish i'd never discovered.
the truth about love -
is once it's been lost it cannot be recovered.
the truth about love -
is that sometimes the best ones have to start over.
the truth about love - is once it's been lost -
sometimes it's just gone forever.
this is the truth about love.
we've said goodbye a thousand times
still there's so much more i wish i could say to you right now.
like - "i always knew that this would end."
but lying in your arms felt so right- i let us pretend.
i could never love you like you wanted,
but i could never love anyone more.
when you thought i was full of lies and malice
i was just trying to protect us both from this.
this is the truth about love.
this is the part so few dare to discover.
the truth about love -
is that the best ones don't always last forever.
now you're a million miles away
waking up in someone else's arms every day.
for the first 2 years i couldn't move...
now there are days when i forget to remember you.
cause i could never love you like you wanted,
and i think that broke me much more than it hurt you.
cause you thought i was full of lies and stories,
when all that i had done was lost my mind over you.
this is the truth about love.
this is the part so few dare to discover.
the truth about love -
is that the best ones dont always last
and when they don't last - then we're just left to make it on our own.
... and i was never good at being alone ...
this is the truth about love...
the part that i wish i'd never discovered.
the truth about love -
is once it's been lost it cannot be recovered.
the truth about love -
is that sometimes the best ones have to start over.
the truth about love - is once it's been lost -
sometimes it's just gone forever.
this is the truth about love.
I'D BE A FOOL
i can tell that you don't love me anymore.
after all you've put me through i see you're not who you swore you were.
you're just young and SO confused, and i let you in
and started to collect bruises while you had your adventure…
and i was a fool cause i fell for you.
against my better judgement i threw fear out the door and let you explore...
and you took advantage while i was enchanted by all your i love you's…
i can tell you don't respect me anymore.
you push and pull not caring of the damage you do.
you need to grow up and apologize to me.
you need to find strength to be the person you always claimed to be-
and COME AND TELL ME-
that i was a fool cause i fell for you
against my better judgement so i got used.
and i'm still a fool- cause i STILL love you...
and i would give up anything to fix this mistake.
to erase this hate i've had to hold onto to get over you.
i can't explain why i still remain
CERTAIN that its you…..
it's YOU.
id be a fool to let go of you.
i'll carry us both through this if you'll give me a chance-
just ONE more chance-
cause i still love you! and i KNOW you still love me too...
cause love like ours just doesn't disappear overnight... or 6 months...
it's stays and fights for us both.
it binds us when we're flailing…
you've ended us now…
but tomorrow i will figure out…..
......... how... ?
cause id be a fool
to let go of you....
again.
i can tell that you don't love me anymore.
after all you've put me through i see you're not who you swore you were.
you're just young and SO confused, and i let you in
and started to collect bruises while you had your adventure…
and i was a fool cause i fell for you.
against my better judgement i threw fear out the door and let you explore...
and you took advantage while i was enchanted by all your i love you's…
i can tell you don't respect me anymore.
you push and pull not caring of the damage you do.
you need to grow up and apologize to me.
you need to find strength to be the person you always claimed to be-
and COME AND TELL ME-
that i was a fool cause i fell for you
against my better judgement so i got used.
and i'm still a fool- cause i STILL love you...
and i would give up anything to fix this mistake.
to erase this hate i've had to hold onto to get over you.
i can't explain why i still remain
CERTAIN that its you…..
it's YOU.
id be a fool to let go of you.
i'll carry us both through this if you'll give me a chance-
just ONE more chance-
cause i still love you! and i KNOW you still love me too...
cause love like ours just doesn't disappear overnight... or 6 months...
it's stays and fights for us both.
it binds us when we're flailing…
you've ended us now…
but tomorrow i will figure out…..
......... how... ?
cause id be a fool
to let go of you....
again.
UNDER THESE LIGHTS
whether its tonight or whether its next year
we have to face it. things have become SO clear.
if we were a map - i'd be Boston, you'd be lake tahoe.
what else has to break for one of us to bite the bullet and go?
should i go before you go… ?
you're just all sound without a touch of fury.
i cannot stick around
but i cannot bless this ending.
something so promising is threatened before its started -
and we let it end us.
we ended.... brokenhearted....
the lesson's in the madness.
there's magic in this sadness...
you can stay if you're afraid of heights
but i'll never be free
til i get out from under these lights...
it couldn't be then so i made it right now.
i couldn't save us, so i saved me, somehow...
that surely doesn't mean i don't think of you every second.
that surely doesn't change what i said- and how i meant it -
then...
but we changed....
how i've changed.
there is no blame here, only understanding.
i see it now- i was far too demanding.
when a tree is growing toward the sun -
it stretches it's branches.
you were like that tree, growing toward me -
but empty handed...
there's strength behind destruction
and i'm pulled towards that seduction...
you can stay if you're afraid of heights
but i'll never be free til i get out from under -
these lights that taunt me, these lights that haunt me.
these lights that break my heart...
these lights have owned me, i've let them control me.
but i have to let go now -
of our love.
whether it's tonight or whether it's next year
we have to face it.
things have become so clear...
whether its tonight or whether its next year
we have to face it. things have become SO clear.
if we were a map - i'd be Boston, you'd be lake tahoe.
what else has to break for one of us to bite the bullet and go?
should i go before you go… ?
you're just all sound without a touch of fury.
i cannot stick around
but i cannot bless this ending.
something so promising is threatened before its started -
and we let it end us.
we ended.... brokenhearted....
the lesson's in the madness.
there's magic in this sadness...
you can stay if you're afraid of heights
but i'll never be free
til i get out from under these lights...
it couldn't be then so i made it right now.
i couldn't save us, so i saved me, somehow...
that surely doesn't mean i don't think of you every second.
that surely doesn't change what i said- and how i meant it -
then...
but we changed....
how i've changed.
there is no blame here, only understanding.
i see it now- i was far too demanding.
when a tree is growing toward the sun -
it stretches it's branches.
you were like that tree, growing toward me -
but empty handed...
there's strength behind destruction
and i'm pulled towards that seduction...
you can stay if you're afraid of heights
but i'll never be free til i get out from under -
these lights that taunt me, these lights that haunt me.
these lights that break my heart...
these lights have owned me, i've let them control me.
but i have to let go now -
of our love.
whether it's tonight or whether it's next year
we have to face it.
things have become so clear...
BABY...
i didn't know.
i couldnt see - all of the times i prayed for something more
it was in front of me.
i had to lose everything,
baby...
my past is hard.
i tried to forget...
but running towards you was like crawling with my legs planted in cement...
i tried to let go, but couldn't break free....
baby…
and for someone who swore i couldn't imagine a day with you -
i sure did a good job of making you leave…
you didn't know.
you couldn't see - all of the tears and all of the scars
that are inside of me...
i made you lose everything...
baby…
i shouldn't have leaned on someone so young...
you're so inexperienced… i should've stepped up to be the strong one.
i needed help....
more than you could provide,
baby…
and for someone who swore they couldn't imagine this life without you -
i sure did a good job of shutting you out…
i didn't know.
i couldn't see that all of the times i wished for something more-
it was inside of me…
i made us lose everything, baby.
baby.
baby.....
i didn't know.
i couldnt see - all of the times i prayed for something more
it was in front of me.
i had to lose everything,
baby...
my past is hard.
i tried to forget...
but running towards you was like crawling with my legs planted in cement...
i tried to let go, but couldn't break free....
baby…
and for someone who swore i couldn't imagine a day with you -
i sure did a good job of making you leave…
you didn't know.
you couldn't see - all of the tears and all of the scars
that are inside of me...
i made you lose everything...
baby…
i shouldn't have leaned on someone so young...
you're so inexperienced… i should've stepped up to be the strong one.
i needed help....
more than you could provide,
baby…
and for someone who swore they couldn't imagine this life without you -
i sure did a good job of shutting you out…
i didn't know.
i couldn't see that all of the times i wished for something more-
it was inside of me…
i made us lose everything, baby.
baby.
baby.....
7 MONTHS
7 months on top of 2 years.
7 months of facing my fears.
7 months without one word.
admitting that feels so absurd.
i don't dare to check. i don't dare to hope.
i stop myself from caring at all.
i don't dare to ask, i don't want to know.
some puzzles are better unsolved
after 7 months...
i have learned to give in.
i have learned to let go.
i have learned there is beauty in letting my weakness show.
i have learned to be Love and to let that shine through.
i have learned there is SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE than loving you...
there's a world out there - and it's MINE.
it is so fantastic... it's divine....
and i give thanks. i live kindly.
harmoniously.
7 months is all it's been.
7 months sans my best friend.
7 months - are you scared?
have you even noticed? do you even care?
you don't have to check. you don't have to hope
that's what's great about walking out.
you don't have to ask - cause you don't care to know.
some baggage is better thrown overboard
after 7 months.
7 months on top of 5 years.
7 months drowning in my tears.
7 months without one word.
living that has been absurd.
you don't have to scream. you don't have to pout,
cause regardless - things will work out.
you don't have to cry. you don't have to whine,
cause regardless - you will be fine.
you will learn to let go. you will learn to give in.
you will learn that "losing" always means that you really win.
you will learn to be Love and to let that shine through.
you will learn - there is SO much more to life than what hurts you...
there's a world out there, and it's YOURS.
go crashing through windows.
go kick down some doors.
and be grateful.... it will set you free.
and if you're ever ready -
please come home to me...
7 months on top of 2 years.
7 months of facing my fears.
7 months without one word.
admitting that feels so absurd.
i don't dare to check. i don't dare to hope.
i stop myself from caring at all.
i don't dare to ask, i don't want to know.
some puzzles are better unsolved
after 7 months...
i have learned to give in.
i have learned to let go.
i have learned there is beauty in letting my weakness show.
i have learned to be Love and to let that shine through.
i have learned there is SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE than loving you...
there's a world out there - and it's MINE.
it is so fantastic... it's divine....
and i give thanks. i live kindly.
harmoniously.
7 months is all it's been.
7 months sans my best friend.
7 months - are you scared?
have you even noticed? do you even care?
you don't have to check. you don't have to hope
that's what's great about walking out.
you don't have to ask - cause you don't care to know.
some baggage is better thrown overboard
after 7 months.
7 months on top of 5 years.
7 months drowning in my tears.
7 months without one word.
living that has been absurd.
you don't have to scream. you don't have to pout,
cause regardless - things will work out.
you don't have to cry. you don't have to whine,
cause regardless - you will be fine.
you will learn to let go. you will learn to give in.
you will learn that "losing" always means that you really win.
you will learn to be Love and to let that shine through.
you will learn - there is SO much more to life than what hurts you...
there's a world out there, and it's YOURS.
go crashing through windows.
go kick down some doors.
and be grateful.... it will set you free.
and if you're ever ready -
please come home to me...
WHEN WE WERE YOUNG (part II)
the scene is SO different on this side of the river.
the green is so vibrant, the grass makes my strong feet shiver.
we made it through.... we made it through the storm.
the world's upside down, but nothing that can't be repaired was torn...
now the snow falls in september
and nobody can remember what's going on -
we're all stuck in our mirrors.
now it's hailing in july
and nobody can figure out why we are here
or what we wanted back when we were young.
life can be SO brilliant when you live like time's an illusion.
no heartbreak or fear... when we let go we find absolution.
we made it through.... we found our refuge inside.
no one's alone cause new light breaks forth when the stars collide....
now the snow falls in september.
and nobody can remember where we are from
we're all trapped in our cell phones...
now it's hailing in july
and nobody can figure out why we are here
or what we wanted back when -
we were young and believed we could honestly do ANYTHING.
because when we grew up - we grew out of believing
that we were worth believing in at all...
the scene is so different on this side of the river.
the green is so vibrant, the grass makes my worn feet shiver...
but we made it through... we made it through the storm.
the world's upside down, but out of the wreckage -
new life is born....
<3
the scene is SO different on this side of the river.
the green is so vibrant, the grass makes my strong feet shiver.
we made it through.... we made it through the storm.
the world's upside down, but nothing that can't be repaired was torn...
now the snow falls in september
and nobody can remember what's going on -
we're all stuck in our mirrors.
now it's hailing in july
and nobody can figure out why we are here
or what we wanted back when we were young.
life can be SO brilliant when you live like time's an illusion.
no heartbreak or fear... when we let go we find absolution.
we made it through.... we found our refuge inside.
no one's alone cause new light breaks forth when the stars collide....
now the snow falls in september.
and nobody can remember where we are from
we're all trapped in our cell phones...
now it's hailing in july
and nobody can figure out why we are here
or what we wanted back when -
we were young and believed we could honestly do ANYTHING.
because when we grew up - we grew out of believing
that we were worth believing in at all...
the scene is so different on this side of the river.
the green is so vibrant, the grass makes my worn feet shiver...
but we made it through... we made it through the storm.
the world's upside down, but out of the wreckage -
new life is born....
<3