i have learned, over the past few years, how to REALLY take care of myself.
i used to have a big problem with that, not because i didn't WANT to take care of myself -
but maybe, i think, because i didn't know it was necessary.
in previous years- i have had this thing where i feel bad for needing alone time. i have always felt bad about needing to excuse myself, or to not go out, or to not STAY out, or to sleep alone, or to eat alone... things like that. i have felt BAD about it, and not understood why i felt within me - that i needed that.
i don't feel bad about it anymore. i give myself permission to be alone, and i don't make excuses about it.
in fact - i have become SO used to being alone - that i actually have to REMIND myself that it is necessary to see people outside of my house/work ;D
here is what i have learned i need - to be at my very best, so i can have a positive attitude - and continue working, and continue functioning well enough to keep helping others and healing and discovering new things within myself.