i've started taking progressive selfies throughout my day. it's my new favorite thing, they make me laugh SO HARD!
this blog has taken me forever to write! like 2 weeks! ha ha :D i love these catch up blogs, but boy are they time consuming! why do i do it? i don't know... what else am i gonna do? ;D oh, 50 thousand other things? oh, ok. i'll do this.
don and i spent the first weekend of november recording all my vocals for "still", my new album.
it was really REALLY fun, and we thought we were going to finish and get the album out on my birthday (the 26th), but we ran into a veritable TON of computer problems. so we did not get it done, and in fact- are STILL working on it... which is a bummer. but! good thing i'm not a perfectionist! our new release date is valentine's day, which we're gonna hit with no problem ;D
1. How did you get into blogging?
it was very natural for me to start blogging - i'm a writer and a journal keeper... so... it's not really a big deal to "share my life" online. i used to do it all the time back in high school on the dinky forums that were available in the 90's.... then myspace got big when i was in my late 20's, and in my early 30's facebook blew up... and we were all doing these surveys and writing long "notes" and everything... it's just another form of journaling for me :D and since it has nothing to do with my job, i actually count it as a hobby i REALLY enjoy, now :D
2. What’s your favorite topic to blog about?
i love just blogging pictures! travel, clothes, makeup, my life, decor, french stuff, british stuff, anything. i just love looking at pictures. i've been obsessed with taking pictures and researching photography since i was a kid... so it's cool now to get to feature my favorite things from pinterest and tumblr and my own things... i just love being surrounded by beautiful, inspiring images :D <3
3. What’s your favorite time of the day?
sunrise and sunset. i love being up and on the road as the sun comes up on a road trip, but then i have to take a nap, later ;D i also try to never miss the sunset. it's been very, very important to me for the last several years... something about living through a few (kind of extremely traumatic) events has made me very aware that any sunrise or sunset could be the last one i see... so i try to never miss them <3
don lives right on the outskirts of modesto, and about 2 houses down from him it starts turning into country... and there are a few houses out there that I WANT TO BUY AND LIVE IN FOREVER. they are SO adorable, i mean just LOOK at these!!! *heart eyes* a COTTAGE ranch? a traditional style BRICK ranch? A TUDOR RANCH????? COME ON. i'm in. I'M IN FOREVER.
4. Best movie you watched in the last year?
omg i have no idea how many movies i watched this year. hundreds, probably. at least up in the 50's... in the THEATRE - the best movie i saw was "crimson peak". i couldn't get enough. it was dreamy, and freaky, and just... everything i wanted it to be. it was horrific in places, but they were quick and easy to turn away from... the rest of it was just SO. GORGEOUS. that movie will inspire me for a long time. at home - i think the movies i watched this year that was new to me that i ENJOYED the most, were "monsters", "october gale", and "while we're young". monsters was beautiful and poignant and sad and really, REALLY surprising... just a gorgeous movie.... not scary at all - like it is billed. its gorgeous. "october gale" is the same way. it got terrible reviews, but i just loved loved loved it. 3 of my all time favorite actors: patricia clarkson, scott speedman, and tim roth. the reviewers are right - the story isn't as flushed out as it could be, especially how it rushes at the end, but its GORGEOUS, and sad, and .... its just the kind of movie i love. it reminded me a lot of one of my top 10 fave movies of all time "high art", with the way it takes it's time, and pays attention to creating the feelings, rather than killing the story with too much dialogue. and "while we're young" almost killed me, i laughed so hard. i don't know - i watched a LOT of good movies this year :D
5. What is the last song you listened to?
we'll talk about that down below :D wait for it...
6. Do you have any pets?
no, but i have 4 daughters.
i think i talked about it a little in the october ketchup, but i played for "the 25th annual putnam county spelling bee" at modesto high last month, and it was AAAAAMAZING. definitely made it onto the list as one of my top 5 accompanying gigs EVER! the show is just special... very heartfelt and sweet, but the kids in this particular production were what made it so good. and lucas and xanthia ("just wait and see..." chorus members!) were the leads! WHOO! lucas was the lead in "zombie prom" which was the musical they did last year, and he was good then. HE IS AMAZING, NOW. and xanthia was a little chorus girl in "zombie prom", but she played "olive" in Spelling Bee, and STOLE THE SHOW. she's a heartbreaker :D i felt very, VERY privileged to be a small part of this production <3
my mom and i did Operation Christmas Child again this year, of course :D
we were able to do 16 boxes, (8 boys, 8 girls) which is a little less than usual (we always try to do at least 20 or more), but it is what it is, and we are SO thankful that we can afford to do our part each year!!! i REALLY encourage you to click that link and check it out for yourself... its a WONDERFUL WONDERFUL WONDERFUL WONDERFUL WONDERFUL program... i personally have done it since i was 24, and i can't imagine spending money on anything more necessary each Christmas <3 i will write an entire blog about it later, complete with everything we purchased and all the prices, so you can know the kind of financial commitment involved. it's worth it - trust me <3 skip a latte or two and you can fill an ENTIRE box.
it's really amazing <3
my friend elyse always surprises me by remembering my birthday.
it's the SWEETEST thing, especially since birthday's don't really mean anything to me.
i NEVER remember other people's birthday's, it's a fault, really. because everyone seems to make a big deal out of them, except me! gift giving is just not my love language.... at all... but she is SO good at it (like everyone in my life.... EXCEPT. ME. GRRRR. WHY.) and she always surprises me with a book or some cool little thing... usually something zombie themed, because she knows i live in fear... but through the years she has always sent and made me a lot of dinosaur stuff, cuz... also obsessed. she's made me logos, website designs, little cards, little drawings, and now - has sent me this. SHE IS THE BEST. she's just the best best <3
thank you so much, eri-san, for always remembering me. you make me feel so special that someone as special as you cares about me! I LOVE YOU <3 imPROvise, forever. and a day. and then another day.
i had a couple of amazing italian dinners, last month! here's just a glimmer...
my friend eric came home for thanksgiving, and he and i took a little overnight mini-trip to the city to spend some time together, it was SOOOO fun. it's probably been 12 years since he and i got to spend more than 4 or 5 hours together... it was nice to spend 30 hours on top of each other, and not get sick of each other even once, and remember why we've been such good friends since we were in diapers! :D
tuesday morning we got up early and went to pick up his boyfriend zach from the airport and then spent the day in sf. i'm not sure i have EVER IN MY LIFE seen a more gorgeous san francisco day... it was breathtaking <3 i'll write a whole post on it later with ALL the beautiful pics, but for now, here's just a snip.
on the way home, we got stuck behind this truck that said "dong fang", and i laughed hysterically for at least an hour. i'm 12. looking at it now - i'm REALLY hoping it wasn't a dolphin meat truck... ??? :/
7. What’s one life lesson you’ve learned over the years?
nothing EVER goes the way you think it will, and usually it'll go the straight OPPOSITE from what you carefully plan. so being flexible is absolutely vital to survival. i used to be so steadfast, but now i'm so "whatever", i don't know how i'm doing it. i even amaze myself, sometimes. i regularly think "boy- that used to REALLY bother me..." but now - hardly anything even registers on my bug-out scale. maybe it's just part of growing up, but my brain has finally changed from defensive mode and has settled into permanent problem-solving mode. and i've never been happier, or more calm. learning to roll with the punches is a real lesson. a REAL lesson... and unfortunately i think it's a lesson you only learn after having lived through some shiz :/
8. If you could travel anywhere, where would it be?
venice, all through france, all through great britain, the swimming hole in mexico, nashville with my bf <3
9. Who is your celebrity crush?
how much time do you have?! i think right now i'm most stoked on sam rockwell. he's been a favorite since i was a teenager, but i never really understood why i liked him so much. he's brilliant. i've been studying him lately... taking notes... he's one to emulate. he's incredible.... natural, understated, calm, fun, menacing... everything. he does it all seamlessly... which is what makes him such a threat... except that he's a doll <3
thanksgiving was also my bday this year, so we doubled up on the celebration.
and by "celebration" - i mean - i stayed in bed until 11, got up to eat a donut, and then went back to bed until 4ish. then i helped make dinner. my aunt and uncle came over, which is always THE BEST TIME. getting to spend time with my 4 favorite people on the planet (only missing john john and bug!) is second to none, for me. i don't need anything but them :D we ate until we couldn't move, and then ate pumpkin cheesecake while we played my "no vowels" game, which consists of about a thousand words and phrases i've come up with and taken the vowels out of.... like this "BNNHMMCK" ..... know what that is?
i have 11 different categories... and its a blast. i'll write more about it later once it's all worked out. for now, i'm still making up all the cards in all the categories. then i'll move on to rules and regulations and creating the board and so forth.
for now - here's some thanksgiving pics :D squeak is doing this new thing where she jumps STRAIGHT UP from the floor - and lands somewhere on my head or shoulders, where she perches like a parrot until i tell her to get down.
and last but not least - i started writing a new musical this last weekend!!!!!!!!!!!
i've been hashing it out in my mind for a long time, even though i never started penning it until 5 days ago... i had to finish "just wait and see..." and then for some reason "still" just came pouring out of me in about 3 weeks, so i had to get that down, and now - it's just time. i think once this is done being written - i will focus next summer on recording it, and push recording "killing me" into the fall, because "killing me" is just SUCH a fall-time project :D i don't know what this new musical is going to be called yet, it's a folk inspired project... not a lot (if any) love songs... just something totally different for me. it's going to take me awhile, which i like.... it'll at least take a few months. i'm hoping to have it done by late spring... that's my plan, at least. and when does anything EVER go according to plan? ;D
i got deathly ill for a few weeks with pneumonia :/
but i was a rockstar and didn't miss my sunday job. a few days in between, yes.
but i always showed up for work sunday morning... sweaty, fainty, but there ;D
an AMAZING woman made me this gorgeous care package and blew my mind...
one of the sweetest things anyone has ever ever done for me <3 THANK YOU, KIM <3 <3 <3
How did you come up with the name of your blog?
- my blog doesn't have a name. who cares.
Who are your style inspirations?
- french women, mostly... and old jazz artists.
If you could trade lives with anyone for a day, who would you pick and why?
- hm... this is always interesting because it's always changing... for me, at least. i think right now i'd pick someone like harry styles or ryan gosling. 1st to see what it's like being male. and 2nd to see what it's like being THAT insanely famous. usually i'd trade places with an astronaut or something, but i'm curious about the psychological effects of fame, right now.
What is something people are always surprised to learn about you?
- i don't know! nothing? everything? who is surprised by people anymore, anyway? ha ha
What is your favorite place in the world and why?
- my little hiding spot at MBA. it was my special escape as a kid, when we'd vacation there... and i just always feel it pulling me back there. if i ever disappear and everyone is wondering where i've run to - i'm probably there, fyi. don't come looking for me... just know i'm alive, and looking at the ocean and sunset.
What is your Zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology/do you think your sign fits?
- sagittarius. i believe in a little of everything... so, yes.... but i don't live my life by it. my sign fits me about 55 percent. there are a lot of weird things about sags that skipped me... i'm also on the scorpio/sag cusp, so i have some scorpio traits, too - but none of the terrifying ones. i've worked those all out and far, far away ;D
Favorite book and why?
- "a new earth" by eckhart tolle.... because it gave me the tools to take my life back, and it is a constant source of inspiration for healthy living, and creating patterns that HELP you, instead of self sabotaging all the time, which is what i used to always do.
What are three of your daily essentials? Can be any category: Makeup, apps, your phone, just three things you couldn’t live without.
- im gonna go impersonal rather than like, my dogs or family or something... so... a good shower, a tight hug from someone i really like, and the sky.
In the spirit of the season, who is your pick for Oscars best dressed?
- no clue. didn't watch em, couldn't care less.
What are your daily reads?
- news, devotional, french and russian sayings, and my favorite blogs.
Are there any quotes or mottos you particularly live by? If so, what?
- you know, my favorite quote has always been "it's never too late to have a happy childhood", from Still Life With Woodpecker by tom robbins. its a brilliant book... but a few months ago, these 2 little graphics with sayings on them found me, and CHANGED my entire thought process.... i think one of these would be my mantra, now.
that one ABSOLUTELY blew my mind. INSTANTLY changed me and how i approached my own personal healing process.
i mean....... WUUUUUUT.
my greatest lesson in life is learning how to let go. i have to do it over and over and over, all day, every day. some people never struggle with it, but i do. that's why it's so peaceful for me to not be holding on to anything right now, because its a NEW kind of peace for me. i always have peace of some kind... peace with myself, with certain situations, etc. but never an all encompassing peace. but something about reading the word "Necessary" REALLY brought it home for me. why would pain EVER be NECESSARY???? its such a horrible thought, and one that i have struggled with forever! i put MYSELF in painful situations! stupid. so so freaking stupid. that pain was NEVER necessary... but i wouldn't have changed had i NOT done it to myself all those years. oof. it was necessary until it wasn't. MIND BLOWN. self evolution is such a wild thing. i'll never stop being amazed by all that we are capable of learning, and missing, and growing, and changing, and back sliding, and picking ourselves back up... its incredible how strong and resilient we are! isn't it?
okay! i think it's time to stop this blog, ha ha. talk about the longest thing i've ever done...
i will talk to you soon! :D until then - enjoy these cuties ;D