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 1)Are you really ready for 111 questions? yep. bring it on. im gonna time myself and see how long this takes me. 2) Was your last real relationship a mistake? meh... all relationships feel like mistakes when they don't work out. i'd never choose that word for that particular instance, though. 4) Who did you last say “I love you” to? courtney dirty boogie holiday humpiss vance nance. 5) Do you regret it? um, NO. shes one of my all time best friends. 6) Have you ever been depressed? yep. i don't recommend it. 7) Are you a boy or girl? most days im a girl. 8) - missing question. 9) What is your relationship status? ermmmmmm....singley and mingley. 10) How do you want to die? i'd prefer to live forever. but if i have to die, i'd like to walk out into a poppy field in the middle of england on a warm sunny day and lie down, and think about my life for awhile, and cry about my life for awhile, and laugh about my life for awhile, thank God for all of the blessings and all of the hard times, look up at the sky one last time, cling to the grass one last time, and sing "sing me to heaven" in my head as i count backwards from 30... and just go. 11) What did you last eat? waffles. wow. 12) Played any sports? i used to rock at baseball. ok softball. but i find baseball is less painful. hitting that huge softball almost always broke my hands. i got back into playing sports (mildly) this summer and its so super fun at my age now. i can't wait to do it more. 13) Do you bite your nails ? when im watching scary movies or bored, yes. 14) When was your last physical fight? oooooo... it wasn't really a fight, it was more like an intimidation wrestle which i lost. it was unsettling. a year ago last february. *shudder* i try not to think of such things. 15) Do you have an attitude? everyone has an attitude. do i have a BAD attitude? sometimes. sassy? always. understanding? mostly. 16) Do you like someone? if you mean romantically, yes. if you mean friendship, yes. 17) What is your real name? michelle :) 19) Are you gonna get high later ? WOW survey. ok now im regretting this. and no. unless you count eating copious amounts of chocolate and chips "high"... which, i kinda do. so yes. 20) Do you hate anyone at the moment? meh... whatever. im over it. 21) Do you miss someone? my niece. my aunt. 22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti? twirl for shiz. 23) Do you tan a lot? i doooooo. oh wait, you mean naturally? or tanning booth? ive never been to a tanning booth. but as i get older, im getting back into tanning during the summer time. for years i JUST burned. like a crispy crisp. but then i think i built up my outer skin level to handle damage, and its been smooth tan sailing ever since ;) 24) Have any pets? 2. the best dawgs in the entire world. 25) How exactly are you feeling? kinda sicky from last night. extremely tired... happy :) 26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? hahahahah these are the dumbest questions.... YES survey. have you? 27) Ever made out in the bathroom? AHHHHHHHHHHHH omg YES. oh i LOVE all the memories this just brought back.... hahahaha. the bathroom is THEE escape place for inappropriate make outs. ugh. i love it. LOVE IT. 28) Would you take any of your exes back? hell no. they all treated me like crap. you dont deserve second and third and millionth chances when you disrespect someone on a fundamental level. 29) Are you scared of spiders? i dont even want to answer it. i dont even like being by that word. 30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? HELL YES. theres a millions things i'd love to do and people i'd love to meet. 31) Do you regret anything from your past? meh... whatever. im over it. 32) What are your plans for this weekend? had an. AMAZING. TIME. last night. tonight im working on the studio, and tomorrow- san francisco!!!! <3 33) Do you want to have kids? ..... 34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M? yep :) 35) Do you type fast? 113 WPM no mistakes. so that is a yes. 36) Do you have piercings? How many? 2. ears. 37) Want any more? kind of want a tiny tiny stud in my nose. we'll see. 38) Can you spell well? most of the time. sometimes when im in a hurry i have to call out for a word cuz my head is all jumbled. 39) Do you miss anyone from your past? liam. thats honestly about it. i dont spend any amount of time missing people anymore. the last few months have changed me drastically, and now im just living in the moment. i can honestly say- i really have let everyone go. it's up to them if they feel i'm worth it to make an effort for again. but im truly fine without all of them. im in a really good, really healthy place. and don't really worry about such things anymore. its just not worth it. 40) What are you craving right now? liam. hahahaha! thanks survey. meh... i'll just go watch a british youtube video. same thing. 41) Ever been to a bonfire party ? YES. oh i love them. the one we had at the beginning of the summer was truly one of the best nights (and few days) of my whole life. 43) Have you ever been on a horse? I HAVE!!! and i will be again next week! whee!!!! <3 44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck? LOLLLLLL!!!!!! actually YES. omGGGG this survey. memory LANE, yo!!! ahhhh.... first year of college... how fun you were... 45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart? doubtful. 46) Have you ever been cheated on? many times. physically and emotionally. its awful. i could and would never do that to someone. 47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? yeah. its awful. 49) Would you live with someone without marrying them? have. would again. its lovely :) 50) What should you be doing ? what im doing at this exact moment. 51) What’s irritating you right now? nothing. 52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? oh yeah. 53) Does somebody love you? lots of people do :) i have absolutely incredible friends. <3 54) What is your favorite colour ? currently, its pistachio, or mint green. i am like, obsessed with it. i dont know what the deal is. its like an addition i've developed. its weird. 55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? oh yeah. in a vehicle, in public... ya know. whatever. ain't no shame in my game anymore. 57) Do you have trust issues? not anymore. because i am solid in the way i allow myself to be treated now. and the first red flag with someone- i'm out. it's not a trust issue, it's a respect expectation. life is too short to let yourself be taken advantage of or treated with ANY amount of disrespect. and i was taken advantage of for faaaarrrr too many years by people who swore to love me and have my best interests at heart. i dont have trust issues anymore because i will never give the power of my self worth away again. and now im level headed enough to pull my emotions out of it and see it for what it is. that makes it a lot easier to move on from people who treat you with disrespect. you simply say to yourself "would i EVER treat them like this?" and if the answer is no, then the appropriate action is goodbye. you teach people how to treat you. and i won't put up with anything less than basic respect, which is what i treat EVERYONE with. see? i told you. healthy and good :) 60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? i do. the last 8 months have solidified our relationship more than i ever thought it could be. they're amazing people. 62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you? i believe it is no longer relevant. 63) Who was the last person you cried in front of? courtney. and everyone at tresettis bar ;) hahahahaha. so awesome. 64) Do you give out second chances too easily? not anymore. up until a month ago? yes. 65) Is it easier to forgive or forget? neither. they're both excruciating periods of time. but only when we face head on the things that hurt the most, do we grow into the people we're meant to be. 66) Is this year the best year of your life? possibly. 67) What was your child hood nickname? shelly belly. 68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked? yes. yes i have. quite recently :) 70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason? not anymore. i believe things happen, and how we react to them is what shapes us. i've gained an entirely whole perspective of life and lessons in the last year. a lot of my life long beliefs have fallen by the way side in the process. its good. im very evenly keeled right now. and part of that is not looking for meaning anymore. it's simply accepting what is, and seeing that i am the only one in control of my situation. 71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? fell asleep in bed with courtney whilst watching "blades of glory". and then somehow got to my bed, no clue how. 73) What is bothering you? nothing. 74) Have you ever been out of your province? PROVINCE! LOL! yes. i've also been out of my township, ha ha! 75) Do you play the Wii? i do not. 76) Are you listening to music right now? i am not. 77) Do you like Chinese food? in small doses, a few months apart. 78) Do you know your fathers b- day? i do. 79) Are you afraid of the dark? not anymore. im not really afraid of anything anymore. besides the aforely mentioned s-p-i-d-e-... i'm not even going to finish that. 80) Is cheating ever okay? nope. having the courage to be an honest person no matter what is ok. 81) Are you mean? no. 82) Can you keep white shoes clean? no. i have two insane dogs. i can't keep anything clean. 84) Do you believe in true love? i don't speak of love anymore. because as soon as i do, my perspective changes. 88) Do you like the outside? i crave the outside. im rarely inside anymore. 89) Are you currently bored? no. im currently quite engaged in these questions. 90) Do you wanna get married? see "do you believe in true love?" 91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? it used to be, yeah. now i cringe when someone calls me that. 92) Are you hungry? no. im rarely hungry anymore, thank you. 93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? i've made out for more than 7 hours straight. yes. 94) What makes you happy? family. friends. dogs. 95) Would you change your name? ya know, up until a month ago, i would have said yes. but now ive done so much work to accept myself for exactly how i am, i could never change it on principle alone. it would be fun to be a frankie or something :) 96) Ever been to Alaska? i have, but i was very young so i don't remember it. great story. 98) Do you watch the news? i do. 99) What’ s your zodiac sign? sagitarius? is that the sign? or the month? i know nothing of zodiac symbols. 100) Do you like Subway? i like THEE subway, i hate subway sandwiches. they're like day old barf on 2 day old bread. 101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? it would be very, very loaded and very, very confusing. so yes. 102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? high five. 103) Do you talk like your friends? yes. we all have a very similar way of speaking, but its probably just because we've all been together for so long we have 15,000 inside jokes. and those carry into our daily conversations with each other. 105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them? yes. i do that with a few people who are no longer worth my time. i don't avoid, i just don't even acknowledge. 106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? oh yes. but to be honest, i act like my complete self around everyone. so that's not really like, special or anything. 107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? boomer :) 108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? not really. i mean, for health reasons i disagree with it, but i've dated a few smokers who were amazing and never smelled bad, and ... ya know. whatever :) 109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? courtney. 110) Favourite lyrics right now? the scars of your love they leave me breathless, they keep me feeling we could have had it all... 111) Can you count to one million? yes, and quite recently, i did :) **for those keeping score- that took me 49 minutes. WOW....  <---------- once in awhile, foxy just needs to remind me who's boss... When's the last time you ran? today. i ran.... out of powder and had to go buy more. ha ha... see what i did there? Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them? only one pair- one of my favorites. juniper chewed the bottom of them all up when she was still in her chewing phase... along with ALL of my shoes. What are you dreading right now? going back to do the show next weekend, and what a huge week i have this week... lots of traveling. why do i over commit? oh yeah. CAUSE ITS FUN. Do you celebrate 420? um, i dont even know what that is. is that the marijuana thing? if so- no. if not- no. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? absolutely never ever ever in my life have i slept 8 hours straight through. never. thats not true. RARELY. If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would you do? im assuming this question is trying to get me to plan something i'd do with this person, but in all honesty- if someone came over on my lazy day- i'd pretend i wasn't home so they'd go away and i STILL wouldn't have to do anything. Who last grabbed your ass? andrew. i have a feeling the answer to this question will be andrew for quite some time... Have you ever been on your school's track team? omg... now that i've laughed for 20 minutes.... no. Do you own a pair of Converse? yes. they are brown and blue. i have worn them once. and i've had them for like, 7 years. Did you copy and paste this survey? yes. from my steps, from fb, from like, 3 years ago. Do you eat raw cookie dough? no VOMIT. i think its disgusting when people do that. its raw eggs!! hello?! sal manella much?! or however you spell that... im too tired to google it. you know what i mean. CHICKEN disease. Have you ever kicked a vending machine? ohhhhhhhhhhh yes. i've done more than kick it... IT WAS HITTING ON ME ALL DAY. it was asking for it... Don't you hate it when the radio ruins good songs by playing them over and over? i dont listen to the radio enough to have that happen anymore. but yeah, i can remember when that was really annoying. i have a feeling adele is really good- if everyone would just shut up and let her be good without CRAMMING it down everyone's throat about how good she is... its human nature to defy what everyone else proclaims. i dont know when we'll catch on that the way to REALLY sell something is to just let people figure it out by themselves. Do you watch Trading Spaces? i dont even know what that is. so no. How do you eat oreos? i don't. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone? yep. no one is worth giving up so much of your valuable time for. you could be doing ANYTHING else, but instead- you're just sitting there, waiting for them all day. if you have to wait around like that for someone, they don't respect you OR your time. so you shouldn't waste it on them. and i don't anymore. Are you cocky? not at all. i just expect to be treated with a certain amount of respect. and if people can't muster that, i can't muster enough energy to care about them anymore- and why would i? if you can't treat me right, you don't deserve my attention, no matter who the hell you think you are. the best way to get respect is to give it. if you can't do that- don't EVER expect to get it. and if you've ever treated someone like that- you owe them an apology. but don't expect them to hear it. you had your chance... when they were waiting around all day for you. and you chose to be a jerk instead. you don't DESERVE second third and fourth chances when you don't respect someone the FIRST time around. Could you live without a computer? if i had a different profession- yes. but not now. ive made myself daily reliant on a computer, unfortunately. i love taking days off it though... i feel like im living again. Do you wear your shoes in the house? nope. i wear shoes as little as humanly possible. Who or what sleeps with you? my dogs. At what age did you find out that Santa wasn't real? absolutely no clue. im not sure i ever believed to begin with. i remember being young and knowing it was my dad in the suit, but i only remember seeing him do it once. he might have never bothered again because i figured it out :) but my 5 year old niece WHOLE HEARTEDLY believes in santa claus. and it's an absolutely wonderful thing to see. How many phones, house phones and cell phones are in your house? 4 phones, and 3 cell phones. What do you do when you're sad? i don't really get sad anymore, so i'm not sure how to answer this. i USED to do any number of things to distract myself, or just cry as long as i needed to and then be done with it. i still get upset, but not really sad. sad is... not something i'm sure i'm capable of anymore. which is effin' fine with me. Who would you call first if you won the lottery? i have absolutely no clue. Last time you saw your best friend? last month???? i think??? month before? may maybe? i don't even remember. it always seems like way too long. Are you in high school? absolutely not, under no circumstances. and i have no time or energy for people who behave as tho theyre still in high school. and i ESPECIALLY have no time or energy for people who proclaim to hate people who behave as tho they're in high school and yet are unbelievably immature themselves. spend less time criticizing other's actions and more time working on yourself. What jewelry are you wearing? none. Is anyone on your bad side now? yes, but whatever. i can't control them, so im not going to waste my energy letting them upset me. they're not worth it. What's the first thing you do when you get online? check yahoo to see if anyone has ordered anything so i can take care of it immediately. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? nope. i think that show is a huge waste of time and the people who watch it are living out some sort of sexual fantasy through those characters they don't have the guts to live out themselves. i think that show is awful, has no morals, and is dangerous for women- because they get sucked into that instead of living great love lives themselves. thats the problem with soap operas. they give everyone something to compare their life to, but it's not a great example of people living their lives well. if you want to be disgusting and cheat on every relationship you have and have sex with strangers at inappropriate times in inappropriate places and allow yourself to be used and emotionally and physically abused- by all means- think Grey's is a great show. i just don't need that kind of trash in my life. i prefer things that enrich, not degrade. How do most people spell your name? shelly bart. Would you wear a boy/girlfriends clothes? have. will again. Where do you work? at home. What are you doing tomorrow? supposed to be going to see colleen, but now i have a gig instead. if i didn't need money, my life would be filled with such awesome adventures ;) Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson? ha ha ha... that just shows how old this survey is. you can't compare the two. thats just ridiculous. Favorite name for a girl? sam. Favorite name for a boy? sam. Will you keep your last name when you get married? who knows what will happen with my life. ive learned to not speak of such things because by the time they actually happen- everything will have changed. When was the last time you left your house? today. to sub for a church service and then to do my show. im exxxxxxxxxhausted :) Do you return your cart? ALWAYS! omg. i never understand why so many shopping carts are abandoned on the side of the road. who doesnt drive that is buying a CART full of groceries??? hello people. know your limits. Do you have a dishwasher? yes. i would die without a dishwasher. sticking my hands into disgusting dirty dishwater makes my stomach turn. What noise do you hear? my computer humming, juniper snoring, and someone mowing their lawn out front :) Would you survive in prison? i'd like to think so. i'd be the really quiet one who just tried to hide and not get raped ... Who is the youngest in your family? my niece, elizabeth. she's five. and perfect. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, who would most likey overpack? all of us. Do you know anyone with the same name as you? i don't know another shelly, actually. not that's in my life in a regular kind of way. What's the last thing you purchased? powder and deodorant. Do your siblings ever pay for stuff for you? absolutely not. my sister and i have kind of a hate hate relationship. What brand are your pants right now? my TIGHTS, are walmart brand. Ever been to Georgia (the state)? ohhhhhh yes. in the dead of summer, we went to savannah to pick up some friends one time, when i was living in nashville. LAWD have mercy. with the exception of miami- hottest place i've ever been. What irritates you most on the internet? not knowing if people are being truthful. misinterpreting tone because of typing... lots of things. im not big on just typing online. i like to see a person's face when i'm talking to them, or at least hear their voice. bad things happen when someone won't let you see their face. i'm always skeptical of that. if you can't look me in the eye- you have something to hide. and ive been through that before, and will not go through it again. look me in the eye. or don't expect to talk to me. What brand is your digital camera? well, i USED to have an awesome digital camera, altho the brand is escaping my memory right now. but alas, someone else is now enjoying my amazing camera, as well as all the pictures of bug and me from her trip here :( why do people steal? Do you watch movies with your parents? only REALLY appropriate ones. i DIE inside when im watching something with them and someone starts having sex, or curses. DIE. die die die inside. What song best describes your life right now? dont really know. i'd have to write it. Do you own expensive perfume/cologne? i do. i'm almost out, but the best perfume i own is called "lost" by evelyn and crabtree. its been discontinued for about 2 years, and i bought it at their store in York, england. its the best smelling perfume i've ever smelled. every time i wear it people freak out. and its no more :( if you could somehow find me some- i'd never leave your side. Are you taking college classes right now? i am! im taking french and a few others, which i will share soon :) its amazing. livin' the dream <3 Do you like sushi? not really anymore. i used to love it, but now it really grosses me out. veggie sushi, obviously. its something about the salty seaweed taste that just turns my stomach :( i wish it wasn't so, but alas, it's so. Do you get your hair cut every month? absolutely not. i haven't gotten my hair cut in 3 years by anyone other than myself. Do you go online everyday? almost. Will you pass this survey on to 5 people? no. kbye. SECRET # 1 Who was your last facebook message from? van. and yes, that is a secret indeed.(??????) SECRET # 9 Something you do a lot? well, if we're sharing SECRETS, i'll share something that most people probably dont know i do a lot, which is dance with my dogs. i probably spend around 2 hours on and off every day, dancing around with my dogs. i saw a video last year about this man who tango'd or something with his dog, and ever since then, i've wondered if it's possible to get my dogs to do that. so i try. daily. to teach them little routines. it mostly consists of me jumping up and down in one location, encouraging them to jump with me... and then inevitably i roll my ankle and fall down. thusly ending the session. SECRET # 10 Regret much? yeah, honestly. i do regret quite a lot of things. ive never understood people who say "live with no regrets." i understand the whole standard overused answer of "my actions have shaped me", but isn't it normal to reflect and yes, even regret? i realize i wouldn't be the person i am today without my choices, but is the person i am today so great that i shouldn't regret anything bad i've done, or look back over the things that make me feel bad and figure out a way to change that behavior into something better and good for the future? yes. i regret. a lot. i do. and i think THAT is what makes me the person i am. recognizing that i have made mistakes and THOSE MISTAKES are why i am the person i am today. and the fact that i am unhappy with that, leads me to make different and ultimately better choices now. SECRET # 11 What's stopping you from going for the person you like? they're married. i'll like someone else soon enough. time travels on. SECRET # 12 When was the last time you cried? ohhhhhhh i dont even remember. SECRET # 13 Is there anyone you would do anything for? pretty much anyone i have a positive relationship with. this is a dramatic question, so i'll answer it dramatically- if anyone i love REALLY needed something, or needed defending or help, i would go to great lengths to help, defend, save, rescue, mercy kill... whatever. ;) i am now someone who can say, without question, i treat people 100% the way i want to be treated. and if you can't do the same for me, you don't deserve to be treated ANY way by me. so you aren't. if you can't muster some respect, i do not respect you. the people who DO value me and put forth an effort to be in my life and make sure i know i matter to them, are invaluable to me. because they make me think of all the people who have given up along the way. all the people who say "you're my best friend" and then their actions show the exact OPPOSITE of those words... they show me i, in fact, do not matter to them at ALL... and they inspire me to be a better friend, child, aunt, everything. the people i wouldn't do ANYTHING for are the ones who make everyone else so so so important. SECRET # 14 Who or what do you think about when you are falling asleep? i don't. i make a concentrated effort to NOT think about anything. i count backwards from 30 over and over until i fall asleep. if someone or something comes into my mind, it is only for a passing moment, and then its gone. so nothing worth mentioning because i can't even remember anything right now other than numbers. SECRET # 15 Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? i actually erased my name from this question :) the person who answered this survey before me had talked to me last... and now i haven't spoken to that person for ... i dont know how long. months, at least. and i will probably never speak to them again. interesting how time completely erases things we once convinced ourselves were vital to our survival. my father. he is the last person i spoke to on the phone.  brave (brv)adj. brav·er, brav·est 1. Possessing or displaying courage; valiant. 2. Making a fine display; impressive or showy: "a coat of brave red lipstick on a mouth so wrinkled that it didn't even have a clear outline" (Anne Tyler). 3. Excellent; great: "The Romans were like brothers/In the brave days of old" (Thomas Macaulay).n. 1. A Native American warrior. 2. A courageous person. 3. Archaic A bully.v. braved, brav·ing, braves 1. To undergo or face courageously. 2. To challenge; dare: "Together they would brave Satan and all his legions" (Emily Brontë). 3. Obsolete To make showy or splendid.v.intr. 4. Archaic To make a courageous show or put up a stalwart front. —Synonyms 1. bold, intrepid, daring, dauntless, heroic. Brave, courageous, valiant, fearless, gallant. Refer to: confident bearing in the face ofdifficulties or dangers. Brave is the most comprehensive: it is especially used of that confident fortitude or daring that actively faces and endures anything threatening. Courageous implies a higher or nobler kind of bravery, especially as resulting from an inborn quality of mind or spirit that faces or endures perils or difficulties without fear and even with enthusiasm. Valiant implies a correspondence between an inner courageousness and externaldeeds, particularly of physical strength or endurance. Fearless implies unflinching spirit and coolness in the face of danger. Gallant implies a chivalrous, impetuous, or dashing bravery. —Antonyms 1. cowardly.  TEN things you wish you could say to ten different people right now: 1. pretending i don't see you staring at me constantly has become one of my favorite games. and when i finally lift an eyebrow and make eye contact- i love how you NEVER look away. you just smile :) it KIIIIIIILLS me... 2. hanging out with you was the best time i've had all year. i can't wait til you come back again at the end of the summer. im seriously counting the days already... 3. pretending i dont think you're insanely hot makes me chuckle at various times in the day. seeing everyone else fall all over themselves for you, and then seeing how you react when i ignore you makes me HOWL inside. i like playing with you :) 4.I CAN'T WAIT FOR SANTA CRUZ!!!!!!!!! 5. if you just show up at my house again in a few days... when i haven't showered yet... or for a week... im seriously gonna kill you. 6. i can't wait to see you next week! its gonna be out of control :) 7. you are still one of the 3 funniest people i have known in my ENTIRE LIFE. after 15 years, how can we still have NO IDEA how we met?! 8. i still think of you at least 5 times a day. come visit me. every october you promise, and every october passes with no you. this is the year. i can feel it :) 9. stop dickin' around in the cacti and come to california and marry me already. i swear... texans... 10. when you rubbed noxema on my sunburn last week, i thought my heart was gonna crawl out of my chest. sex.eeee. NINE things about yourself: 1. i havent had a zit in months. since sunday, i've grown about 15. WTF? 2. i think ive hydrogen peroxided my hair orange... but i cant tell. 3. i cant wait to cut my hair. i cant wait to cut my hair. i cant wait to cut my hair. 4. i sit in total silence for hours upon hours while i work, lately. 5. i worked for 14 hours straight today. 6. i have been using absorbine junior for a week. its not helping. ewwwwww. thanks a lot gross show shoes. 7. if it matters to you, it matters to me. 8. im into ruffles right now. 9. i cant wait to do another show. EIGHT ways to win your heart, in no particular order: 1. wink at me 2. give me a hard time 3. sing like nobody's business 4. respect me 5. defend me 6. be open minded 7. hold eye contact 8. flirt with me like its your last day on earth and im the last person you're ever gonna see... SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot, in no particular order: 1. whatever. 2. where the eff is liz? 3. be the river. 4. where are the dogs? 5. pickwickpickwickpickwickpickwickpickwickpickwickpickwickpickwick 6. "it was red and yellow and green and brown and scarlet and black and okre and peach and ruby and olive and violet and fawn and lilac and gold and chocolate and mauve. cream and crimson and silver and rose and azure and lemon and russet and grey and purple and white and pink and orange and blue!" 7. "no! no! no, no, no! STOP! you robbers your little number's up. one of you has stolen my precious golden cup. joseph started searching through his brother sacks" (heh heh) "everyone was nervous, no one could relax" (heh heh) "who's the thief whos the thief? whos the thief whos the thief? is it ruben? is simeon? is it napthali? is it dan? is it asher? is it isachar? is it levi? who's the man? is it zebulan? is it gad? is it judah? is it HIM? could it be could it be? could it be could it be? could it be could it be? could it possibly be benjerman? yes yes yes!" SIX things you do before you fall asleep: 1. yawn at least 15 times (thats how i know its time to quit) 2. apply zit creme 3. swab my ears 4. check paypal 5. video chat or talk 6. set my alarm FIVE people who mean a lot to you: 1. katia 2. katie 3. kellie 4. colleen 5. courtney FOUR things you're wearing right now: 1. wife beater 2. boxers 3. hair tie 4. THREE songs that you listen to often: 1. "amen" by paula cole 2. "respect" by aretha franklin 3. "harvest moon" neil young TWO things you want to do before you die: 1. go to venice 2. make some amazing memories in my boat ONE confession: 1. :) if there was only one beauty trend i wish i could pull off... it would be- above all others- red lips. i have found them infinitely sexy since i could walk, i think. i am drawn to red lips. i cant escape them. i think it stems back to loving drew barrymore at such a young age... and she has always worn the bold, bold, blood red lip. i love it. it turns my head. i gravitate toward it. im entranced by it. it takes a very bold and special lady (or man-lady) to wear blood red lips. they have to be done right. the wrong shade can make you look deathly ill... and unless your teeth are PERFECTLY shinning pearly white, it will look horrible... like your teeth have jaundice... of the soul... so without further ado, i present to you the red lip done right. and let me just say- i've stared at each and every one of these pictures for at least 30 (1 alligator, 2 alligator, 3 alligator) seconds each. thats a long time to just STARE ... like a creeper... at one image... without blinking.... whilst coveting... ooooo..... red lips <3 *click photos to enlarge and of course, the inspiration that started my obsession... but of course, when i wear red lipstick, i wind up looking like this... sorry girls... i had to warn them... :/  soooooooooooooo. just call me linda hamilton. cuz im about to go all terminator on your.... you know. today's picture story is about my arms. now, i never ever EVER wear sleeveless shirts or revealing clothes in public. at home im like a naked factory... but soon- all that is about to change, yo. i have been working out for 3 months straight as part of my intensive detox and mental therapy. (for those of you who don't know, i was diagnosed with... well, let's just call it 'something very very bad' several months ago, and rather than go the route everyone always goes where you lose 50 pounds, all your hair and your will to live, i decided to meet with herbalists and therapists and see if i could first detox it out of me. i was given a very low chance of survival, less than a year, but .... honestly... i feel great. mentally and physically exhausted, but better than i have in a long time. so... who knows. i dont talk about it much because i dont want it to define me and i dont want every conversation i have to be about it. so, i choose to let it spill in small doses. like, right now. plus, on the off chance i DO live, i dont want everyone being like "well, you SAID you were going to die so i was all nice to you.... great." ya know. and people would... everyone hates me. anyway, hush hush. its my thing, and i should be the only one talking about it. okay? thanks.) so every day i take this massive amount of pills that make me sick for awhile, and then i feel ok. when i start feeling ok, i work out. my favorite thing to do is walk on my tred mill (which i should do EVERY DAY but i dont. laziness dies hard...) and then WEIGHTS. i have 15 pound weights that i pump. EVERY DAY. NO MATTER WHAT. i feel like a rock star. and even tho i show them to no one (except bug last week was like "auntie- you're buff!" how she even KNOWS the word buff i dont know. how does she know the words "reiterate" and "dodecahedron" ??? how can she multiply compound fractions? shes five. and shes smarter than me...) i know they're there. so finally bug got a taste of my awesome muscles because i was throwing her around the pool every day for a week and a half. she was like "aren't you tired yet?" and i was like "no way man. let's go." cue 50 more throws across the pool to which she finally responded with "OKAY OKAY! i just can't take anymore"... she's so dramatic. and its the funniest thing ever. so... long story short (too late) i have muscles. and i like them. buy me chocolate and you might get to see them... the picture is of my right upper dorsamis muscle... its my favorite of all the dorsamisses... something i have always gotten a kick out of is some japanese teenagers' interpretation of american style... especially those in tokyo. i can't tell you how many times i have seen little japanese girls running around san francisco or l.a. decked all out in mini-skirts with my little pony's swinging around their necks, or their hair crimped out to mars with 15 pounds of eyeliner on - all atop a school girl uniform. i just think its HILARIOUS and absolutely adorable. such freedom and joy with fashion. in a world where everyone takes themselves SO seriously, its refreshing to see people who just want to have fun. not dismissing everything that is wrong with the world, but finding things to celebrate in SPITE of the state of the world. im not saying that if you are just cynical and pissed off all the time (like me) that there's something wrong with you, and im DEFINITELY not saying to find something good in EVERY situation (cuz i hate those people... sometimes you just want to be sad and stop having people tell you you're a bad person for not pulling yourself out of it...) but when you can take the time to pin 6 pound puppies into your hair as well as 15 pink hair extensions, fish net tights, a mini skirt and 3 bathing suits you have sewn together to make a shirt- there's just something special about you :) so today is a tribute to japanese girl street fashion! im not sure why teenagers who have never been to america think all americans dress like rainbow brite super heros... OR the olsen twins... but as someone who would choose to wear everything in her closet at once as WELL as every accessory known to man... all at the same time... i definitely appreciate it ;) JAPANESE GIRL FASHION!ok. i have always been a tad obsessed with seersucker. not bravely obsessed enough to try wearing it, but obsessed with how it looks. we have a LOT of seersucker S&BB stuff on its way out... at any rate, researching all my boat stuff recently (look on the right sidebar for the icon "I'M BUYING A BOAT!" to see the latest happs...) i have had my love of seersucker renewed. its just so bright and happy and summery. ive decided that seersucker is going to be the fabric of choice for my boat, and this led me to think of it in other categories.... like WEDDINGS. how rad would it be to have gorgeous seersucker for a wedding?! i just... i can't get over it. and low and behold, im not the only one with this idea. enjoy :) SEERSUCKER WEDDINGAND i just can't get over this paper crane hanging thingie... obviously, im making one tonight. 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