i can't believe the week of bug is coming to a close :( i'll still be writing some more posts about her, but she is leaving today. and my heart is breaking. she slept in my arms all night... nothing beats the feeling of someone you love feeling safe enough to fall asleep in your arms. its been a long time since i felt as special and as loved and important to someone as i have this week.
last night we were making silly videos, and all of a sudden she jumped up, grabbed something, and then jumped back into my lap. then she handed me her wallet and said "auntie, i want you to have this. its my most prized possession." and of course i said "bug! i can't take your wallet!" and she came back with "yes, you can. take it. i want you to have it. keep it safe for me until i come back, ok?" and of course my eyes filled with tears. then she went on to this speech i have copied verbatim from the video: "it has two petals in it." she pulls out the 2 petals i gave her from her mom's (last) wedding. "these are our friendship petals. remember? you gave these to me to cheer me up when i was sad. you said that these petals represented you and me. and just like petals grow into huge beautiful flowers, you and me will always grow closer and closer together the bigger we get. and even though" ..... "doesn't love us or want to be friends with us anymore, i don't want you to be sad, auntie. because we still have each other. you have me and i have you. im still your best friend no matter what. and i promise i will never ever ever leave you. and i always keep my promises. nothing can stop me from that. besides, when you really REALLY love someone- you never leave them. EVER. for ANY reason. and thats just how it is. so you don't even have to worry auntie. we love each other so much, we will always be together. i promise."
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buggie is just a little piece of magic.
last night we were making silly videos, and all of a sudden she jumped up, grabbed something, and then jumped back into my lap. then she handed me her wallet and said "auntie, i want you to have this. its my most prized possession." and of course i said "bug! i can't take your wallet!" and she came back with "yes, you can. take it. i want you to have it. keep it safe for me until i come back, ok?" and of course my eyes filled with tears. then she went on to this speech i have copied verbatim from the video: "it has two petals in it." she pulls out the 2 petals i gave her from her mom's (last) wedding. "these are our friendship petals. remember? you gave these to me to cheer me up when i was sad. you said that these petals represented you and me. and just like petals grow into huge beautiful flowers, you and me will always grow closer and closer together the bigger we get. and even though" ..... "doesn't love us or want to be friends with us anymore, i don't want you to be sad, auntie. because we still have each other. you have me and i have you. im still your best friend no matter what. and i promise i will never ever ever leave you. and i always keep my promises. nothing can stop me from that. besides, when you really REALLY love someone- you never leave them. EVER. for ANY reason. and thats just how it is. so you don't even have to worry auntie. we love each other so much, we will always be together. i promise."
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buggie is just a little piece of magic.
